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FYI this is possibly not sufficiently angsty to be of interest to anyone who might read it.

gobsmacked in the jello moulding shift cycle allusion to something, doesn't quite fit the quackery, when she was born they broke the molten fire pit, drop in the ocean, piss in the handbag and call it ridiculous.

it always starts with something incomprehensible, need the right filters to bring it back, to make the chaos look like something approaching pattern. I turn atoms into plaid, buddha was a redneck...certainly a weapon of mass destruction. In one way the most evil person i'm aware of...destroyed absolutely everything and only considered his work complete when he had destroyed himself, but continued to preach that there were better ways then his, if only people could find new things to destroy! Crowley at least spent some time creating! The shadow selves would be afeared if they realised the lengths we go to just to persecute them.

i went for a walk and it was lovely. i don't know exactly how i filtered the barrage of photons and air molecules that assaulted the organs that converted them into electrochemical reactions in my nervous system, but however i did it, it was pretty swell. Shall have to do it again.

need to get around to ordering 'i am a strange loop' by hofstadter...must not forget again...

I left a pile of shit on my neighbour's front doorstep. He caught me running off, and yelled out "Very clever...you realise i've got two dogs and know how to handle dog shit". As he picked it up with a plastic bag over his hand, i told him it was mine. He yelped, flailed, the man-chorizo flying straight towards a passerby. I don't think there's a lesson in this anywhere, it's just a bit dumb.

A lot of people argue that there's no such thing as a real fractal. The argument seems to hinge on the assumption that there is a fundamental particle that everything is made out of. So, for instance, if you line up two mirrors facing each other, it might *look* like an infinite corridor of smaller and smaller mirrors going off into eternity, but *actually* it only goes until you get to a 'mirror' the size of a photon, at which point the photons coming back and forth between the two mirrors interfere, and so you don't get any smaller mirrors anymore (just, presumably, a photon sized blank patch). Actually that's a bad example because it makes sense, and i was trying to disagree with that viewpoint. Shit!

I was wanting to think of a different example of a fractal in nature which could go smaller than the size of a photon, but unfortunately can't at the moment, which means i'll have to sadly concede that there mightn't be such thing as a real fractal. Which is exactly the opposite of what i wanted to argue here, but stiff shit evidently! I do still like to think that there's no such thing as a fundamental particle, that the universe just keeps getting smaller and smaller forever, although apparently that's impossible because "all the energy would get sucked out the bottom" and you'd end up with a universe entirely devoid of anything. I don't really understand this argument, which is why i don't agree with it at the moment.

water bears are more fun. They are incredibly cute, despite being microscopic. I like to think that they float around in my drinking water looking for honey and getting into adventures, stoicly attacking microscopic humans whenever the humans encroach on the bears' territory (possibly with microscopic logging activities to build microscopic furniture for the microscopic cubicles they work in).

Just thinking about it makes me thirsty.

UPDATE: Since originally writing this post I've found proof (to my own satisfaction) that any "fundamental" particle is physically impossible. However, as most people I've been speaking with over the last year would consider this mind-numbingly self-evident, I shan't bother!

Suffice it to say that it's sometimes hard to feel impressive when you're impressed by the people around you. BUT, it's easy to feel competitive >=D