dropbunny

start again.

episcopizzalian ridiculous ridiculous you could ridicule someone for that you know, just don't let it be you first, never let it be you first, something will happen, the world will explode, you've gotta watch out it'll come for you when you least expect it, they're everywhere, hiding in the airbrushes waiting to come out of the closet and snatch you away again and again and then you'll never get back again.

i used to wonder about the phrase 'you can never go home again' and think it was just a bit dicky. But lately i've been thinking it a lot - i don't think that means anything but it might not.

the worst thing anyone can do is make art that their parents appreciate, i think. I'm sure neitchze would agree, although maybe after his failed affair with wagner he got so bitter he changed his mind (neitchze bitter?! White != black?!)

maps, territories...i got trapped in a vortex the other night thinking about such things. I wanted to know what anything is at its most fundamental, but in order to know something is something, you need to compare it to something you know, which just makes my brain hurt to think about. There was also an interesting article today where they asked in 150 words or less what some of the most well known modern psychologists and nueroscientists fretted about not knowing about themselves. I found it a little disappointing that despite the ludicrous and exciting advances in science and philosophy in the previous several centuries, that most of the answers were things that people have grappled with from at least 300BC (as far as i've read, i'm sure neanderthals also wondered about the point of it all).

cut cut cut everyone finds their own variety of masochism (if all are one all sex is masturbation, if all are one all violence is masochism) gentrify the meaningless put puns in your porrige and let's have a good, fair game, fellas.

brain like a heartbeat, open, close, relax, push pump force forward more moremore go. Need to find the plywood in my knuckles for the next communication...but how reliable are memories anyway? The angry philosopher in the temple of mirrors, glaring at himself with the most furious impotence. It shifts up and back.

i'm trying to paint pictures of photons by showing where they *aren't*. I'm a dreadful artist so i can only be sure that it's not really what it's supposed to be.

the reason buddhists can be so serene is because they're so violent. Buddha is easily the most evil person i've heard about - he destroyed everything that exists, everthing that doesn't, didn't consider his work complete until he'd totally destroyed himself. Then had the gaul to suggest that there are better Ways than his, if only you can find new things to destroy. Crowley at least created things *some* of the time! if the shadow selves had any idea the lengths we go to persecute them, they'd be well afeared.